12 weeks baby 2.0

hey y'all. so here begins the monthly pregnancy updates. life is awfully busy at the moment, i'm hoping that it will slow down after i GRADUATE in june! Wooooohhoooooo! i am deep in the middle of the quarter full of midterms, papers and projects. i am counting down the weeks people! i really enjoy school but this pregnant mama is ready to be done. only 4 more weeks!!! i am so excited! this first trimester has been a little more rough than the first time around. i feel more tired and definitely more intense nausea and stress and anxiety. poor baby, i hope it is developing well! when i was pregnant with z my pregnancy was calm, peaceful, i could rest when i needed and ate better, religiously took my prenatal vitamins, and prayed everyday for the baby.  this time around i am stressed, super busy, it is not as easy to rest when i need (although if i have days where nausea and headaches kick my butt hubby has been doing such an awesome job of taking care of things, poor guy), z is super active, my attitude has been not great, it just has been very different. i feel like i haven't been able to connect to the baby yet like i did with z.  it kind of surprised me. i know that it is more challenging when you are pregnant with a toddler but i was thinking that the symptoms would be different, and didn't take into account how different i would feel emotionally. i think once i can move past this nausea and queasiness my attitude will improve. it's been 6 1/2 weeks of this and i'm so over it. alright, so last week we saw the midwife for the first time and everything seems normal. we got to hear the heartbeat and see this little sweet pea on ultra sound moving all over the place. the other day i did take some time to talk to the baby and try to connect and say a prayer and think about whether this little one will be a boy or girl and what it may look like, how it will be to snuggle another tiny baby and nurse an infant again, how fun it will be to expand and be a family of four. i only freaked out a little when i thought of how it will be to raise a toddler and infant at the same time and the logistics of all that. but really, i feel blessed. we are lucky to have been able to expand our family, to have such wonderful friends and family, to have the ability for me to be home with them, we sometimes forget all that we have. so there's that.

12 weeks!

 How Far Along: 12 weeks

Size of baby: this sweet pea is the size of a large plum, has all of its structures and organs in place, reflexes have developed

Total Weight Gain/Loss: only 2 lbs so far

Maternity Clothes: uh, yea. as soon as i hit week 8 or 9 my pants were very uncomfortable so i've been rocking my one pair of maternity pants that are small enough to fit now and lots of stretchy pants days

Gender: too soon to tell

Movement: lil pea is very wiggly and active although i can't feel it yet 

Sleep: not bad, i'm usually so tired that i can sleep well although some nights it takes awhile to fall asleep, lately i have been so congested that my sleep isn't super restful though 

What I miss: enjoying food, not feeling nauseous, i really miss being my happy, upbeat self

Cravings: nothing really, i just have been eating whatever makes me not want to hurl

Symptoms: nausea, food and smell aversions, extreme breast tenderness, heart palpitations, mood swings, congestion and cold like symptoms although i'm not sure i have a cold...?

Best moment this week:  seeing this little sweet pea and hearing the heartbeat. we had a scare with my thyroid hormones and antibodies because i have Hashimoto's thyroiditis and my TPO antibodies were pretty high which can be very bad for the pregnancy but it turned out to be ok, just have to monitor it, so that was a huge relief. 

i forgot i took a picture at 8 weeks because i started showing earlier this time:

and i thought it would be fun to compare last pregnancy with this one: