32 weeks baby 2.0

oh man.  32 weeks.  in 8 or so short weeks i will have my baby girl.  i can hardly believe it.  we spent this last weekend working on our projects again.  hopefully we can be done in a few more weekends.  and then we can relax.  that'll be nice.  it's getting more and more difficult for me to do things.  my big belly is in the way, i get short of breath, it's hard to move around, i started getting carpal tunnel type pain and fatigue in my right hand and forearm, and of course the lovely braxton hicks contractions that come so frequently when i do things that involve standing up and walking around. but still, the nursery is coming along, i'm working on some crafty things, and we're starting on z's room this weekend.  anyway, the other day me and z went to the mall to pick up a few things, and i bought something for baby girl, a little dress and some fun pants.  z helped me pick out the little dress.  i showed him a few dresses, he grabbed this one and said "this is beautiful!" and it made my heart squeeze so much that i said ok!  we'll get it for her! we have also been getting some gifts for this little girl, mostly clothes, and they are so cute.  this is the first week that i've been checking my blood glucose levels 4 times daily.  it has been enlightening and frustrating at the same time.  i also met with the nutritionist, and apparently my diet is really great, but what is frustrating is that sometimes my blood glucose levels are great and sometimes they are higher than we'd like to see.  and it seems like it's for no reason.  so i'm just frustrated that sometimes it's out of my control.  and i'm freaked out that i might have to be on insulin because that changes the rest of the pregnancy and will require lots of interventions and testing that i'm not too excited about.  so i guess we will see what happens.  i've been struggling with this whole issue.  i think i can control it if i put in enough effort, and i'm so mad at my body for not working properly.  sometimes i get upset and then other times i just resign myself to the fact that if i am doing everything that i can do with my diet and getting in some exercise, and my blood sugar is still not where they want, then there's just nothing else that i can do and my body needs help in the form of insulin.  of course my first concern is to make sure that the baby is healthy and that there are no preventable issues that can make the rest of the pregnancy, the baby's health, and the delivery complicated.  but since i had such a wonderful experience with my first pregnancy and was able to have a natural, unmedicated birth with a wonderful midwife and nurse like i was hoping, i don't want to go the opposite way and have a highly medical experience this time.  it's just so frustrating.  but, like hubs keeps telling me, we will do what we need to do to make sure that both me and the baby are healthy.  sigh.  here's the weekly update:

How far along: 32 weeks 
Size of baby: the size of a squash, or jicama, or a head of lettuce, 
baby girl is about 19 inches long and 3.9 lbs, she is practicing all 
the things she needs for life outside the womb like breathing, 
suckling, swallowing, kicking, and i'll be gaining about 1 lb a week, half of which will go directly to the baby
Total weight gain: about 26 lbs 
Gender: girl
Movement: yea, she moves a lot, it seems like she is running out of room as a rogue leg or shoulder pushes out, she also will kick with
her feet on my side and bounce her head off the other side, at least 
that's what it feels like.  it's like a big trampoline in there for her.
Sleep: interrupted by having to pee, heartburn and being uncomfortable 
What I miss: not having to worry about everything i eat 
Cravings: nothing specific, just food, and crunching on crushed 
ice...which i should probably stop doing.  it's probably terrible for
my teeth and it's killing my jaw
Symptoms: all the same as last week, except now i am having 
some pain in my forearm like carpal tunnel, which i guess is 
common in the last trimester, and some more sciatic pain, but i don't have headaches as often as i did last pregnancy, and the 
heartburn is not as bad
 Best moment this week:  finishing painting the nursery, and the super fun herringbone striped accent wall, i'm pretty excited about that

finished putting the office stuff in the bookcase and trying to make it look nice

still have some things to add to decorate and style it up, but for now at least everything is out of the office/nursery and into the front room

hung the curtains on the front window

desk area, is starting to look better

nursery progress

stripeys on the accent wall

material that i'm using to make a banner for baby girls' room

making some birds for a bird mobile

this is the dress that z picked out because it was "beautiful"

crazy but fun pants

so sweet

i can't even handle these tiny little skinny jeans

i love the bird!

birds!  and hedgehogs!  so cute!