36 weeks baby 2.0

ohhhhhhhhhh myyyyyyyyyyy gosh!  only 4 weeks.  i keep vacillating between being absolutely ready for baby to come, and a little freaked out about pushing a baby out, and then the logistics of caring for a newborn and a very active toddler.  last week i saw the midwife who really wanted me to talk to an OB about my "uncontrolled" blood glucose.  i feel like she was being overly sensitive, because although i did have some high numbers after meals (138, which isn't really that high in the grand scheme of things, but they are very strict for GD), i was struggling with a really nasty cold, which can make blood glucose harder to control AND the average of my fasting glucose numbers were still within their parameters.  but i told her i would see the OB.  i was kind of nervous, because who knows if you are going to get a reasonable doctor or not.  i was worried that they would just put me on insulin because of some policy they have.  i want my care to be individualized, for the doctor to look at my health and my past and make decisions based on a combination of what they know about GD and my specific case.  so anyway, i met with the OB, and he was very reasonable.  he explained that my fasting glucose was averaging 90 and he doesn't consider putting someone on insulin unless the average fasting glucose and post-meal is 95 and 130, respectively.  he said that's the point where you start seeing metabolic issues in the baby, and giving insulin before then is not necessarily worth all the other hassles (like keeping a strict eye on blood sugar levels so they don't go too high or too low, twice weekly fetal monitoring and possible induction at 39 weeks).  he said there is a 50% chance that i may be put on insulin (perhaps just night time insulin) because as the pregnancy goes on it is harder to control since there are more pregnancy hormones causing the body to be less efficient in using/producing insulin.  i asked him about induction, because they (and most OB's) want to induce a pregnant mama at 39 weeks if she has GD.  but he was very reasonable with that as well stating that if my cervix seemed like it was already changing and dilating, then induction would be recommended and less likely to end in a c-section or other types of interventions, but if there was no ripening and dilating and me and the baby were still healthy, then they would consider waiting up to 40 weeks.  so it's not like i would go in, and be given prostaglandins and pitocin until i either gave birth or had a c-section.  which was comforting to know.  so then i became more maleable to the possibility of taking insulin if needed, especially since it would be for such a short time.  anyway, this is all probably boring, but i felt a huge relief after i talked with this OB.  he even said that he would help keep an eye on my glucose levels but i could definitely stay in the care of the midwives, even if i had to be on insulin.  basically everything he said was what i wanted to hear, but wasn't expecting to.  so that makes me feel a million times better.  this last week i worked on finishing the two kids' rooms by sewing a blanket and crib skirt for the nursery and a blanket for z's bed.  i am definitely not a seamstress, and if you look closely at the blankets you will see major flaws and some fabric bunched up and basic beginner stuff, but i sewed them!  haha! with my grama's sewing machine! and it doesn't matter anyway because they are kids and won't care that the blankets aren't perfect!  i also worked on 2 small crafty things for the nursery; hanging some leftover birds from the bird mobile in a frame and some pinwheel art, and i found a small lamp for z's room.  i've been trying to stay fairly active by getting some other random stuff done around the house so i organized the coat closet that was a disaster, and some other things like that.  after cooking dinner and cleaning up, sometimes i am able to go for a walk but most of the time i am too physically tired and having very frequent braxton hicks to exercise more.  by the end of the night i am done!  i am starting to get healthy again from having the worst cold, so i have a little more energy, but now z and hubs are sick.  i just hope we all heal up in the next week or two so that we can bring baby home without worrying about infecting her at such a young age.  anyway.  just a few more weeks!  i can't believe it!

How far along: 36 weeks

Size of baby: the size of a large cantaloupe or the length of romaine lettuce, 19-22 in and around 6-ish lbs, most of the systems are working and ready for the outside world, baby is gaining lots of weight
Total weight gain:  up 33 lbs, i gained 4 lbs in the last 2 weeks! 
Gender: girl
Movement: clear periods of being very active and inactivity when she is resting or sleeping, she moves around a lot when she is active---it actually feels like there is a newborn baby moving around in my belly
Sleep: it's ok, sometimes it's ok and sometimes i lay awake in the middle of the night for a couple of hours
What I miss: just being able to move around in comfort 
Cravings: all kinds of food!  and, of course, crushed ice!
Symptoms:  i'll just save time---all of the third trimester symptoms
Best moment this week: feeling a lot less stress after talking with the OB about my GD, going to my sweet niece Lucy's 4th birthday party

i didn't need a coat when i was in the final stretch of pregnancy with z, so trying to squeeze my big belly into my normal sized coats is interesting these days

rocking my little guy to sleep, i was trying to deep breathe through an intense braxton hicks, z asks if i am ok, i tell him yes, mama's belly is hurting a little, so he so sweetly rubbed my belly while he fell asleep